it's been so so long since i update. i just decided to because i was just looking through old photos, videos.. etc. and things have changed so so much, with time, things change, for better and worse. we slowly realise who are the people we can depend on. and as we do so, we will all notice a decrease in numbers. or maybe it's just me. that ii'm so difficult to get along with or that i am so insecure about everything that it is so difficult for me to let my guard down and enjoy.

even though some friends are not exactly the closest person to me, i am still thankful to have them in a phase of my life. to hold my hand and walk me through that challenging phase. but as i move on, i think i want to make things a little different, i want to keep friends and stop being so fussy and difficult. what i have may be sufficient. but hey, a little more wont kill right?

with the cruelties of life, it's difficult to trust and depend on people. and at the same time, it's difficult to find people that can and will understand you for you. not forgetting, as the world gets more cruel, we get more self centred. we too do not understand individuals for who they are. we become quicker to judge and discriminate, slower to love and understand.

maybe that will be my new challenge. to reverse and resist what the world has caused us to be, naturally. ironically, natural is supposedly the best. well, not in huamn relationships i guess.

i'll never let go of family and people i hold dear to my heart. but at the same time, im going to try to love and care for more people.

to the people that has been giving me unconditional love, thank you.

to the people that i will try to understand and love, please be patient with me.

to the people that has been distant from me, im sorry.

to you, i love you.