the worst part about everything is i dont even know if im the only feeling it or everyone else just chooses to ignore and be ignorant and nochalant about everything. or does he really think ulitimately it will turn out okay and we'll all be happy and appreciative?

i dont know. i've heard the phrase "you'll never understand and appreciate till you grow up" a thousand times. i've heard it since i could understand words. am i grown up yet? if i am, i dont see myself appreciating and understanding any shit any time soon.

it's frustrating and spoils any happy mood. just because YOU are and idiot and refue to change and adapt to times, you make everyone suffer. you make everyone shut their doors on you. and you wonder why we're bias against you. im surprise you dont even know the asnwer yourself. we can hardly have a proper conversation without it ending with an argument or me being so annoyed i cannot be bothered.

we all need to somehow wake up from this idea that everything will be okay. and YOUR fairytale happily ever afgter dream will come true. at the rate things are going, it'll never come true and you can really look forward to living in isolation.

all this while you think money is do damn fucking important. let me tell you, it isnt as important as you think it is. if it can bring you happiness, good for you. but let me tell you money cannot buy relationships and love. you can go live in your own world and soak yourself in money.

and stop thinking you've given alot. we all know how much you've given. and ultimately if you have 100 units and only give 1 unit, it's not a big sacrifice. so for goodness sake, stop making yourself out to be so noble and great. i feel like throwing up.

lastly, stop using God on all of us when you ont even believe in it's existence. it just makes you a manipulative hypocrite. and the fact that i can see through that, you suck as one. stop pretending and maybe start being less sensitive and over reactive before thinking about even having a day together. nobody wants to spend a day with you because it ends up in you telling us how wrong we are and how we suck and how we should learn from you. sorry im not going to learn from you cos i dont wanna end up like you.

before you think im a bitch, i dont think you know what's going on in the first place. it frustrates you and tears you up inside. like i said, i still respect. but only because i have to. it's not a won over respect. it's a respect given by obligation.