maybe all i need to do it let go. let go then i'll feel better. stop holding on to something that may not save my life at the end of the day. let go and i can fully experience the free fall. i'll live somehow. i know it. but for now, maybe i should just let go and let myself do a free fall instead of holding on to something that might not save me.

i dont know what's wrong. i need to.. scream. eat ice cream. buy balloons. go shopping and blow bubbles.

im so fucking tired.

studied with claud today. havent studied with her in ages.
3 weeks to prelim. come on, you can do it.